germany to germany

Take note. Don't forget your dreams. Don't forget to live. Life is filled with work and pain. Don't let it go down the drain.

1. roadtrip in the summer

2. music - "jam room"

3. concerts, sporting events, adventures

time

trying to find my place,

within the human race.

fully surrounded.

feeling weak.

what is it i seek?

time stops.

thoughts cease.

forgetting the future,

the present i seek.

no worries no cares,

mind always prepared.

rock bottom

I've been depressed lately but too ashamed and embarrassed to tell anyone. I feel like I could use some help. I prayed to God. I know he heard me. I know Jesus understands my pain. Please God take this pain from me.

warm

Tonight I reached an extremely high level of thinking. I was thinking about what knowledge I have obtained in the last couple years of college as well as from simply experiencing life. At the same time I was intensely playing the video game madden and really getting into the passing plays. I could feel different areas of my brain working at the same time since I was also deep in thought. With the high level of thinking came a feeling of motivation and optimism toward the future. I know my brain can take me to new heights. After I graduate, my future is whatever I make of it.

toast

lets have a toast for the douchebags

lets have a toast for the assholes

lets have a toast for the scumbags

everyone of them that i know

lets have a toast for the jerk offs

that will never take work off

baby i got a plan

runaway fast as you can

Reminiscing Summer

Ah summer. I miss you. Best events of summer (in no particular order):

1. My brother's wedding and reception - hooked up with a fine italian woman and hung out with her throughout the summer.

2. The journey to Traverse City with my brother Brian - greatest adventure to Traverse City in my life.

3. Bike riding at the Metro Park - a true journey with Brian and my friend Travis.

This is how I feel now: not good. Summer was fun and now I am back at school taking 21 credits. It is not fun being extremely busy with school and constantly working on homework and various shit. F school.

Saturday 12:48

A strange feeling. Ready to go back home to Michigan. My life is good but isn't turning out how I thought it would. Sometimes I'm feeling great without a worry or care in the world. Then, in only a moment's time, that feeling can vanish. Why does life have to be so confusing? Things are never as they seem to me recently. I may think one thing and I am completely wrong. I hope for some things, but they never seem to come. School is forcing unwanted burdens. I miss the freedom of the summers of youth. This summer I will be continuing taking a class and working. Still better than sitting in a classroom all week taking too many classes though. I wonder if my life will ever turn out how I had hoped... gotta put my faith in God and trust that He knows what is best for me.

Thursday 10:52

Life is great! Read this again if you think otherwise.. It will be a reminder that no matter what happens in your life.. Jesus knows how you feel. Pray. He will share what's on your heart to God. Read Hebrews 8.

Drain, Make it Rain

Tonight I played the most ridiculous game of basketball in my life. We had a college club game. Our team had only 5 players. The other team had about 10. I scored 32 out of our team's 43. I was makin' it rain from all over the court, mainly from my favorite spot: the three spot. My first basket of the game was the most incredible shot I have ever made in a game in my entire life. My friend B-White made a jumping save to stop the ball from going out of bounds along the base line. The ball bounced once heading out of bounds along the side of the court. I ran, jumped, grabbed the ball in the air, and launched it toward the basket while landing out of bounds. It went in! Hahaha. The classic specialty shot I learned from playing the driveway legend game of One Bounce. A player from the other team said that it would be a number 1 play on SportsCenter Top 10. Where is a video camera when you need it?

It has been almost 3 years since my last post. When you concentrate on days, time moves slowly. When you look at it by the years, time moves quickly. I thought it would be good for me to type some of my thoughts. Not because I care if anyone else reads this, but because I want to get these thoughts out of my head. I am sick of school and the stress it brings. I am laid back and calm for the most part. I try not to worry about anything. School makes me worry and stress out. Hey, here is another test for you to take to prove you learned something. Hey, write this paper about some random topic. It will help you learn. I want to learn from experience. School throws facts and information others have obtained into a book for me to buy at an outrageous price. Then I get to go to class and stick my head in the book and cram to pass a test. I'm not trying to say school is unimportant, but the more I think of the concept, the more it bothers me. How can I learn to be good at something if all I do is sit in a classroom and read a book?